On the 2nd day (Tuesday) of her stay in the new nursery, when Mummy went to fetch Iman, she was crying. The care-taker (Liza) said that Iman cried because she didn't want to drink her 'milo'. Mummy told Liza that Iman has that tendency to cry when she didn't want to do something. Then Liza also told Mummy that Iman was crying when she got up from sleep. Apparently it was because she had 'she-she' in her pampers which was put on before she took her afternoon nap. Mummy guessed that Iman was upset when she thought she had 'she-she' in her pants because she forgot that she was wearing a pampers since she has not been wearing one lately. When Mummy asked Iman why did Iman cry, Iman told Mummy that Iman missed Mummy! So Mummy just dismissed it.
On the 3rd day (Wednesday), when Mummy and Ayah went to send Iman to Taska Sutera, Iman was crying so hard outside the school. Refusing to go into the nursery. To pacify Iman, Mummy went in and sat with Iman for a while. Because Iman was crying so hard, she vomitted on Mummy and herself! So, Mummy had to go clean her up and also wash a bit of Mummy's pants. Mummy changed Iman using the clothes that Mummy brought for the week and decided that Mummy have to go home to change too since Mummy's pants is all smelly!! Yucky! Iman didn't want to stay in the nursery, so Mummy thought, "OK, let's bring her home first while Mummy change and decide what to do with her since Mummy and Ayah had to go to work!" While Mummy was changing, Ayah managed to convince Iman to go back to that nursery. Somehow Iman has agreed to go back! Great! But when we arrived there, Iman cried again! Refused to go into the nursery! This time we had to just leave her there because we had to go to work! Iman was crying very hard and when Liza closed the door of the nursery, Iman was crying at the sliding door while looking out at us. It broke Mummy's heart to see Iman cry like that. Mummy wished Mummy can bring Iman out of the nursery where she seemed so unhappy to be, but Mummy had to go to work. So, with heavy hearts, both Ayah and Mummy had to just leave. Mummy called the nursery a few minutes after we left to check on Iman and was told that Iman has stopped crying. It was such a great relief to know that. By noon Mummy called again to check on Iman and was told that she has not cried since that morning. Mummy was happy to know that and could concentrate better in the training that Mummy was attending. By the evening when Mummy came back and Iman has been picked up by Ayah, Iman told Mummy that she missed Mummy! It was ok then... no issue about the school!
This morning, the 4th day Iman in the new nursery! When Iman woke up, she said she didn't want to go to 'the new school'. Iman even asked Mummy "can Iman go to Young Ambassadors?" Mummy told Iman that Young Ambassadors is closed for the holiday and that Teacher Azza is on holiday, so there is no school! She has to go to the new 'school'. Iman started to get upset and started to cry... It was so upsetting for Mummy because Mummy had to rush to the office today and won't have the luxury of time to sit with Iman in the new nursery until she is ok. So when Iman said she wanted to go to nenek's house, Mummy just quickly agree eventhough Mummy know that Mummy shouldn't cave in to her request and wish so easily. Mummy know that Mummy should stand by our decision to send her to the new nursery. But it was just not the right time to be fighting on this... so Mummy decided to just send her to nenek's house. In the car when Mummy asked Iman why she didn't like to go to the new school, she said "I don't like new friends..." and started to be teary again. So Mummy decided to just drop the subject because it broke Mummy's heart to see Iman so sad and miserable. Mummy really wish Mummy can send Iman to Young Ambassadors again. So, Mummy called Young Ambassadors and Teacher Azza picked up the phone. She was there to conduct the holiday programs. She told Mummy that they are not offering daycare facilities during the school holiday, so there goes Mummy's solution to put Iman back in Young Ambassadors! Oh well...
What do we do now? Mummy is just so confused and sad now. Mummy really want Iman to be willing and happy to be in the new nursery. Maybe Iman was not giving her new friends the chance to really get to know her and she's also not giving herself a chance to get to know the new friends. But she is not even 3 years old and Mummy know that Mummy shouldn't expect her to understand the concept of giving herself and her friend a chance. Mummy would have to have heart to heart talk with her and try to get her to understand why we are doing what we are doing and what she needs to do to be happy. Oh well... it is so tough trying to be tough when your heart is hurting inside to see your child cry. Mummy wish Mummy don't have to work and can just stay at home with her the whole school holiday until Young Ambassadors is opened again in Jan 2008. I wish upon a star... but I know that wish will never come true.. Sob..sob..sob..